Still Waiting

These have been heavy days. We did learn that as of Friday the stains from Chris’s biopsy are actually not lost somewhere in the stratosphere, but are finally in the hands of the pathologist here to be read. Still, we won’t be able to see our oncologist until Wednesday. The waiting has become hard. I am reminded by my friend Katherine to wait on the Lord. Even more than we wait on results. Wait and see where the Lord’s eternal reality will intersect with our earthly reality. I have a sense that it’s happening now, but it can be hard to turn our eyes upward and outward to recognize it. The pull to withdraw and turn in to ourselves is strong. This waiting coincides with more fatigue for Chris (is this the result of melancholy or sickness?) and a slow down of the flurry of texts, emails, and drop-ins that come at the onset of bad news. There was a lot of energy at the beginning of this, and that energy is decreasing. I think it propelled us for a bit. 

Knowing a valley is ahead is not the same as entering it. Maybe that is where we’ve come. My impulse is to try to distract from where we are. When Chris’s spirit is burdened, I have a moment of panic, until I realize that he is where he is in truth, and I cannot take away his burden. There is only one place for him to go—one person equipped to hold what he carries. And it’s not me. I will be with him, though, in every state. We will continue to sit and pray together and remind each other to wait on the Lord. And, by God’s grace, we will lift up our hearts to him more and more fully. Lord, to whom [else] shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, and we have believed and have come to know, that you are the Holy One of God.  

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  7. Rod and Karen Griffon

    Sept 7,
    Thank you Sarah for the update and for your heart! Please know people in Michigan are praying for you every day seeking healing for Chris and for your family! We have not forgotten Jesus has not forgotten your family! Lord God have mercy on Chris and hear our prayers!!!!! Matt11:28

    1. Barb Kontos Ridolphi

      Dear Sarah and Chris,
      We are praying and waiting with you… I remember how hard all the
      Waiting for diagnosis and treatment plans was for me… I know that the Lord will be there each step of the way🙏💕🙏

  8. Debby Shepherd

    Even though I have never met you, as a fellow believer I am your sister in Christ. I am a friend of Ruth’s and have promised to pray for you. Even this morning before I left my bed I lifted you up to the Lord and prayed for His grace and mercy over you and your family. May it strengthen you to know there is an invisible army out there praying for you.

  9. Skye

    We hold you and your family in every thought, prayer, breath by breath. Although we are far apart, we are waiting with you. We are part of your “warrior team” I have envisioned Chris as a strong Godly, defeating warrior. With light shining behind him. You know that we are waiting to enter the valley with you and Chris and the kids. I love you and Chris beyond words.

  10. Cindy Kross

    Chris, I want to encourage you today! Even though it seems things have slowed down, but prayer worriers in Birmingham and all over the country are lifting you up for healing, ministering angels are with you. Our church and small groups I’m Macon Ga are praying everyday. You are surrounded by the prayers of the body of Christ! While We know Gods will shall be done, I think of Hezekiah in 2 Kings 20:1-11. I am praying God hears your prayers and seen your tears and heals you
    Continued prayers and mercy, Cindy Kross (Riley’s mom

  11. Nan Brinkerhoff

    I am so very sorry for Chris and for your family. I am praying for you and will continue to pray as you walk through this with our faithful God.

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    This is Pat Monson, a long time friend of your mom’s. I just wanted you to know I am thinking and praying for you and your family.

  13. Anonymous

    Sometimes, I think that people just don’t know what to say. Just remember, many people are praying for you every day! Hope always.

  14. John Wilson

    Thanks for this update, Sarah. Wendy & I are thinking of you & Chris and the kids and praying for you all, every day. Much love, John.

  15. Laurie Rogers Powers

    Sitting here…on Labor Day…thinking about you and your family and the Lord is reminding me that those who labor for the Lord do not labor in vain. Your post is a reminder that there are many ways to labor for the Lord.
    He sees you. He has not forgotten you for one millisecond.
    I was nudged in my spirit to print out the picture of your family and keep it next to my chair where I spend time with the Lord each day. I see you as well. Every day.
    And I ask God for new mercies every morning. Lord keep your face so close to Chris, Sarah, Jesse, Ruthie, Andrew and Mary. These are yours!


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